I appreciate this article. I relate very closely. Having grown up Mormon, I get the perceptions of sin, hell, salvation. My go-to when I was young and "confused" were underwear ads in the Sunday paper. Of course it didn't strike me that that was indicative of an entire sexuality until much later. My therapy didn't get as intense as yours. I can't imagine aversion/conversion therapy. I did read Lord of the Rings every in my 20s to remind myself homosexuality was my "ring of power" to bear but not use and if Frodo could make it to the end, barely alive, then I could get through my life carrying "same sex attraction" without "giving in". Took me til about 31 to say "nuts to this".
Scott: thanks for taking the time to write this. Even though your therapy may have not been as intense, it still messes with your mind and creates damage. I hope you are doing better now. I'm going to try and keep touch with you no Twitter. Add me if I can't find you. God bless, man.
That’s awful! I was never forced to smell poop but did have to undergo hours and hours of being prayed over, hands laid on, asking God to me fill my wounds so the desires would fade. When they didn’t, the logical conclusion was God didn’t love me. You describe your understanding of being a problem to God that YOU must change as a precondition perfectly. That defined my teens & 20s and beyond.
Is there any evidence that aversion therapy works for anything? My dad tried it as a diet program in the 80s. He still loves ice cream.
LOL...I vomited from something peppermint flavored one time, and I still LVOE peppermint!!! I hope you arent't too scarred from your experience, and you have found happiness. Keep in touch!
I'm so sorry for your experience. This makes me cry and I feel sick to stomach. But that's okay. How have we gotten it so wrong? Thank you for your willingness to still give people a chance by sharing your story and providing an opportunity for us to look through a new set of lenses.
Hi Gregory. Thanks for sharing. I’m currently writing a play about my own experiences of GCT so reading your story really resonated. Thankfully I was never told to keep a “jar” 🤮 but the damage lingers to this day. Writing about it has been very therapeutic!
Thanks for sharing your story 💙... Such a heartbreaking example of the dehumanizing and humiliating experiences that LGBTQ+ folks have been subjected to.
I appreciate this article. I relate very closely. Having grown up Mormon, I get the perceptions of sin, hell, salvation. My go-to when I was young and "confused" were underwear ads in the Sunday paper. Of course it didn't strike me that that was indicative of an entire sexuality until much later. My therapy didn't get as intense as yours. I can't imagine aversion/conversion therapy. I did read Lord of the Rings every in my 20s to remind myself homosexuality was my "ring of power" to bear but not use and if Frodo could make it to the end, barely alive, then I could get through my life carrying "same sex attraction" without "giving in". Took me til about 31 to say "nuts to this".
Scott: thanks for taking the time to write this. Even though your therapy may have not been as intense, it still messes with your mind and creates damage. I hope you are doing better now. I'm going to try and keep touch with you no Twitter. Add me if I can't find you. God bless, man.
That’s awful! I was never forced to smell poop but did have to undergo hours and hours of being prayed over, hands laid on, asking God to me fill my wounds so the desires would fade. When they didn’t, the logical conclusion was God didn’t love me. You describe your understanding of being a problem to God that YOU must change as a precondition perfectly. That defined my teens & 20s and beyond.
Is there any evidence that aversion therapy works for anything? My dad tried it as a diet program in the 80s. He still loves ice cream.
LOL...I vomited from something peppermint flavored one time, and I still LVOE peppermint!!! I hope you arent't too scarred from your experience, and you have found happiness. Keep in touch!
I'm so sorry for your experience. This makes me cry and I feel sick to stomach. But that's okay. How have we gotten it so wrong? Thank you for your willingness to still give people a chance by sharing your story and providing an opportunity for us to look through a new set of lenses.
Thank you, Tammy. Unfortunately, I think more horror stories need to come out so we can end this thing! Thank you for taking the time to comment. :)
Hi Gregory. Thanks for sharing. I’m currently writing a play about my own experiences of GCT so reading your story really resonated. Thankfully I was never told to keep a “jar” 🤮 but the damage lingers to this day. Writing about it has been very therapeutic!
Thanks for sharing your story 💙... Such a heartbreaking example of the dehumanizing and humiliating experiences that LGBTQ+ folks have been subjected to.
And thank you for stopping by and letting me know your thoughts; you're the first!